Turning 50. It was time,time to clean up my life.Time to make better choices.Time to close the door to unhealthy friendships.It’s not as easy as it sounds.First one friend i have been in a very unhealthy friendship for almost 29 years. He has been in my life,through so much. Our daughters grew up together and are best friends.Matter of fact my daughter is his daughters Matron of honor,in her wedding this November.
I had a big part in helping watch his child for along time,she lived with me for two years. But it gets more complicated then that.We were engaged and a couple for two and a half years in the 90’s. And stayed very good friends when that ended.We have always been there for each other.But in the past five years a lot of unhealthy activity on his part,has made it so ,i can no longer support his way of life.
Not to mention emotionally hurting me over and over. So i ended it. God how i cried.I feel like a death,has happened. But he
left me with no choice. Then after years of being in other unhealthy relationships,i had to end them, It’s the worse feeling in the world.But when they cause nothing but painful drama.What choice do you have,after talking to them about it over and over.
It’s bad enough,we have become a world of keystrokes,and don’t have personal friendships like before,So ending ones you have,is killer. There is no guide book,or how to be as graceful as possible. It plain is horrific.But I’m determined to live the second half of my life as uncomplicated as possible.And surround myself with people that only want the best for me.And I for them.
I have come to know,its better to have a handful of real friends,then thirty fakes.
I sure wish though, there was an easier way to do things like this,but there is not. And so my second half begins. I have to admit i have never felt so at ease with myself,and ready to have a blast. Here i come,smarter, more compassionate and lucky to have the loved ones i do in my life.
To those that just got your half century pin, Lets live,in the present. And enjoy.